Blogging against war - Day #1 May 9th
Context
I will try not to ramble on about this, but I am tired of the only perspective online being of war and how the border is certainly the thing to look out for, the tensions between the Republic of India, and the Islamic Republic of Pakistan have sadly mostly stayed sour with no seeming end to conflict.
And if I my perverted perception of reality is to be agreed with, has no reason to end, no one benefits, everyone (except the wider people) lose! As such, conflict is natural, and within the choir of the war mongers.
It has never been easy to not to be eaten up by the fear of war, and when nearing the end of the 8th of May (two days ago as I type this), I got concerned calls from my parents advising me of "abandoning" (visiting my relatives) as they feared that war was just about to boil over.
After exchanging some dialogue, I was able to convince my mother that in fact, the capital was not upside down in chaos, everybody's life continued moving. I believe ALL polarising emotions lead one down to forgetting this, that "most people live on", later that night when I went in for my midnight shower, I was distracted.
I had been caught up by a sigh political discussion sigh about the terrorism and the idea of self defence sigh between the RoI and IRP (I have never head anyone abbreviate it, but I shall!) sigh in an Indian centered XMPP group chat I hang out with, it riled me up to the point of remembering why I gave up doing this with a lot of my day.
I went on and in the shower I did still feel outraged (sadly cold showers don't help with emotions :( ) and I was still furious, though now I had changed my tone, not to sound like I like to smell my own bowels movements, but I was for once furious enough to do something about it.
Actions taken so far!
Fedi!
I want to push for more people to be on the Fediverse where they can voice their opinions against this SHIT from either side of the border, a more south asian focused server, something akin to this exists, and I wrote a long and painful email at 4 am to describe to them my idea, I will hopefully hear back soon, and hopefully I can see this make some progress.
Walk for Peace
On an unnamed proprietary platform group chat, I am also a part of I noticed someone share a poster for a walk for peace in Bangalore and Mumbai, though nothing like this has been organised in Delhi, I would very much like to see this come to fruition, and if you are in those cities, heres a link [1], I am late, but it is within 24 hours of me writing this.
BloggingAgainstWar
I am not someone who is very into the idea of a public journal, mine exists in my head and my daily accounts are recorded in the heads of the people around me through my conversations and through the few pictorial records I keep.
I am not someone who likes discussing my day to day life, but I will like to document that even at times of contention, even in the urban centre of politics, there is a distinct lack of fucks to give? Mind you I do not live in the centre of the city, but I live a 40 minute bus ride from the political centres, and 20-30 minutes if I take the metro/subway.
As such, I think a new perspective counts for something, even if its mine.
As such, I'll be trying to use this blog to hold these accounts. I hope they prove to be of some value to someone.
9th of May
I woke up late today, I had nothing on my schedule other than having earlier promised my friend that I would be coming over, but I woke up not wanting to leave my bed, and so I did not.
I woke up around 11, called my mother to let her know that I am infact not dead (this is general routine) and then spent the next 4ish hours rotting in bed, with a mix of spending time with my online friend, helping a classmate/fellow nerd/college best friend with her stuff, mixed in with me completely disappointing my friend who tried hard to pull me over to him.
Sadly things didn't much change for the better, at around 1600 I decided to "wake up and rise", shower, and go have breakfast/lunch, Very Healthy!
While out, I decided to map a few things on my way, but couldn't get myself to do much, as it was a friday the school near my house was still full of students and so were the parks, with people putting on cricket matches and retiring onto the benches.
I spotted a few college acquaintances while I sat and ate, and on my way back decided to accept defeat and grabbed myself some apple juice (fizzy one because SUGAR) along side some popcorn, after returning for once I decided to boot up my old (relatively more capable) laptop and spent an hour or so playing The Sims as I had been informed I would be paid a visit and thus could not use my thinkpad which I recently acquire (back in december, I need to write about how amazing this is soon). After a serious call from my friend I decided to cook dinner, but given my piling up dishes ~next to my piling up laundry~ I decided to try the new Kebab place near my house.
I grabbed some shawarma and some bread but failed to notice where they had packed the latter so ate my shawarma roll which was followed by happiness as I discovered the Mughali Paratha which I ate with the spare onion and dip they had added in for the shawarma.
Post this I was informed of my college duty tomorrow (today) and how I would have to go in and fill out paperwork, along with all the other 900 students or so. Fun :-/
Summarising the latter, I spent watching several episodes of Adventure Time Season 6 Episode 16 through 33, after which I was tired enough to recognise if I wanted to start this, now would be when.
The main point of this is not to admit to myself my crappy schedule, or my unending need to sort my life out, but for the hour or two I spend outside are not cowering in fear as I go buy supplies, I was only greeted with friendly faces and people living as themselves.
I hope that makes my point, or I can make a more succinct point tomorrow.
For now, good day :)
I seem to be ending everything with song lyrics, so I shall follow suit here. This was the song for the day when I got into an argument with someone who believe any "outsider" being treated as an equal was bullshit and just utopian thinking and violence was necessary. To that thinking I say.
If I were you, I'd be throwing up
(okay thats very clearly not what the song means, but I will use it for my purposes) Crywank in "Tomorrow is Nearly Yesterday and Everyday is Stupid" (2013), track three, "If I were you I'd Be Throwing Up"
[1]: <https://www.instagram.com/p/DJZV8-WS0up/> (I don't like instagram but thats what they use to organise :( )